unoriginal blog part one.

I have recently decided that things are exactly as they seem.
When you look around, and you see someone smiling, or laughing, they are happy.
You can attempt to hide your feelings, and you can pretend you are stronger than you are, but at the end of the day, you still feel that way.
Your eyes give you away.
At Christmas, I told my family that I was moving away in September of this coming year.
The look on their faces wasn't what I was expecting.
I was expecting some sadness, maybe a little bit of empathy.
No. I got anger. The fact that I was able to move on, beyond them. They didn't think I had it in me, and few of them have the faith in me to make it.

The saddest part of telling people, has been when I told my Great Grandmother.
The look on her face was as though she thought that would be the last time I ever saw her.
Thinking of that look on her face now brings tears to my eyes.

I will miss all holidays next year.
I will not return until Thanksgiving of 2010.
It will be hard, and hopefully life changing.

But isnt everything that way?
Especially, in the life of a phoenix.