unoriginal blog part fifteen.

people really need to realize that if they want me to hang out with them, they should meet up with me before i go home, because, once i'm home, i dont want to leave.

my birthday was enjoyable.
i spent the day hanging out with a great friend, and then dinner with even more friends, and a couple drinks.
it was a pretty relaxed, laid back thing. and exactly what i wanted.

i've decided to take a road trip.
we're going 'east'. thats the entire idea.
(thank god for my moms garmin)

there has been a lot of shit going on lately.
and i still dont know how to absorb it all. im doing the best i can.

also, i've been writing a lot more lately.
i love it.
i've been trying to be more open with it.
its not really working, but, its an attempt.

i wrote a poem for my roommates' wedding. they want me to read it at their wedding.
holy shit, i'm nervous.

im going to see RENT soon. i think this is the most excited i've been for something in entirely too long.

i want another job.
not like, i want to quit one of my other jobs.
and not because i need the money.
i just, want more variety in my life.

every day is exactly the same.
and, i know that after a few weeks, it would just become routine again.

i wish i were spontaneous.
i wish i knew how to really let loose, and just have fun.

i wish i was a twenty-two year old who knew how to act her age, and not her mothers age.