Its finally happening.
I can't believe this is actually going to happen.
I (should be) overjoyed.
I am a bit petrified.
I guess I didn't really expect this to work.



I want to be sharing this with you.

Right now though, I have a thought rolling,
and I'm just going to roll with it, and see where it takes me.



sometimes in life
you just open your eyes
and have to realize
youre alone

occasionally in a day
you just walk the other way
and ignore when people say
their own truths

but being alone doesnt mean lonely
if you dont let it fully sink in
and if by yourself you can make it
then why, girl, oh why would you change it

and then you see it
and you know you cant defeat it
and you just get sucked in more everyday
someday someone will smile
and your heart will race for miles
and youd beg them not to walk away

someday you will smile
and it wont be for them
someday being alone
will be where youve grown to
and youd forget the world every other way

but dont be so bitter
because in the dead of winter
that smile will take your pain away
girl, his eyes will make the fears melt away

i cant even find the words to explain it anymore.

how can one person have so much pull on your life.

i sometimes want to quit, just throw in the towel, but then the smallest thing makes me fall a little more.

im pathetic.

but its amazing what a good friend can do to help.

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You were never what I had in mind;
But I ran to you,
With my heart open wide.
We may not have been right on time,
But I'll wait for you,
If you'll stay mine.
It's been a terrifying run,
As we knew it would be,
But, baby, we can have fun,
Just you and me.
Your eyes are all I need,
To save me from my fears,
And I'm not concerned with the speed,
Just ask me to wait for you.