Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with my life.
I wonder if I'm making the right decisions, if I'm off the proper path, if I'm failing.
I'm 23. Not married. No kids. No prospects for either of those happening in the near future, and not minding.
I work dead end jobs.
I drive a beater.
I pay rent somewhere that doesn't even feel like home, and spend all my time somewhere else. (That does feel like home.)
Then I think to how happy I am. I realize that smiles and love is worth more than a dollar, and I feel like maybe I'm going to be alright.
Maybe I am on the proper path for myself, and although it may not be the path everyone believes I should take, I don't mind.
When I wake up, I see a reason to smile.
When I fall, I know I have someone there to catch me.
I may not be able to buy nice things, but I don't need nice things to be happy.
I'm starting school soon enough, and although I may be years behind most people my age, I feel I've chosen something that will make me happier in the long run, and don't regret it.
Its been, in a large part, a thanks to the people who raised me, and shown me that even if its not like everything else, it can still be beautiful.
Even if its not where you're 'supposed to be', it can still be where you're meant to be.
"Oh as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive."
Girly, it doesn't matter when you do schooling, it's THAT you do schooling.
ReplyDeleteAlso, keep in mind that you can always call me if you feel like you're slipping too much. I'll assure you of how awesome you are, even if you won't believe it.
There will be a decent amount of times where you'll feel overwhelmed because of school. Don't let that deter you, because it's easy to let it happen--and has happened to me on multiple occasions.
You are strong, and you can do it. You can do anything. Know that you deserve a good education and fight for it.